Waiting..in cipher

Loving the way I feel

far apart from her;

choosing this way to seal

all that which can cause a litter.

In a form, its good;

I now worship her;

the idol which was under the hood

is now far more dear.

Pulling me with all the strength,

so that I'm on the verge

of tear and bend;

but I endure.

What do you want?

Why do you stare from far?

As I want to fade and faint

under the after-blues of my internal war.

My new life

seems a drudgery;

and you stick to me

as if I'm a lump of jaggery.

Waiting for the day

when the skies will clear;

hoping for this dismay

to fend off all fear.

And I land

into a cozy fur

of cool sand

with just her and cipher..