The end unreachable

winning a war i've never learnt

its one-third life getting over..

getting at par i've everytime dreamt

its second by second pulling closer

using my fingers i've always burnt

its drop by drop getting away

cracking my head i've left unused

its debasing night after day

gauging my drift i'm here amused

what count is this U-turn

whisking the surroundings that sound diffused

what is the interpretation

trying trying trying as i pretend to do

what draws me to the center of a twister

vying for the aura i ought to woo

what slips in the end by a whisker

dying to pen the thoughts I want to poo

that sway from here to there

itching to bridle those awry clouds

I fear I'll give up in my chair..

What's there missing?

Out of the way,

as I've always been;

I tried to figure out what

is there to delay,

to call upon me;

and pull me back to the naught.

I pretend to be gay,

show my outer sheen

and tell them so much I've got;

but like always

can't bear the gleam;

I retire to the familiar drought.

No! I got in a tray

that relinquished cream

that people like me besaught.

but its well okay

that this goes under a veil,

in the world of my-made thoughts.

Was it the nay

in my early teens

that I now strive for my slot?

or is there lay

the basic dream

of each one for the closest shot.

So what's that which is grey

which I am keen

for adding it to my lot;

for this I should shay

to the inconspicuous gene

which has made my blood un-clot.

Well first to say

this thing in green

should be manouvered, getting out of the cot?

or will it play

with my broken zeal

and emerge from ice to the hot..

till then I pay

with my thoughts in teal,

and prevent myself from getting caught;

and lie in the hay,

I strike my deal;

what part of work I've got.

for coming to the day

that I dream:

I'll pull the lotus out of the rot.

When my wishes will slay

with a laser beam

and this poem will end in one dot..

Waiting..in cipher

Loving the way I feel

far apart from her;

choosing this way to seal

all that which can cause a litter.

In a form, its good;

I now worship her;

the idol which was under the hood

is now far more dear.

Pulling me with all the strength,

so that I'm on the verge

of tear and bend;

but I endure.

What do you want?

Why do you stare from far?

As I want to fade and faint

under the after-blues of my internal war.

My new life

seems a drudgery;

and you stick to me

as if I'm a lump of jaggery.

Waiting for the day

when the skies will clear;

hoping for this dismay

to fend off all fear.

And I land

into a cozy fur

of cool sand

with just her and cipher..

Why should I?

Why should I love you?
A worthless child-I feel I am.
Craving for me from inside, as you are-
so that I embrace you?

Why should I despise you?
The sweetness of your voice
encapsulates me; you mock at me-
a reason to loath you?

Don`t look into my eyes.
The dryness alienates me.
Your constrained eyeballs say
a different story, I surmise..

Walking with you should I avoid?
The pace frustrates me.
Your attempts to match my steps-
will this be counted as a void?

Not a thing I should utter upon.
You don`t deserve to be talked to.
Is this the thing
that prompts you to go on and on?

Lying under the shadow of yours,
without comfort, in your fledgling hands.
A little grass over my locks
is a sign of a quiescent converse?

You moved into me; why?
I am all in pain.
Did you lift me
from a pit to the sky?

The moments to cherish..

The ways, on which we've been;

The roads, which we crossed;

The lanes, in which we were lost;

Etched forever-

a stone souvenir.

The paths, on which we walked;

The grass, on which we strolled;

The boulevards, which we preened;

Perfectly figure,

in my mind's matter.

The walls, on which we leaned;

The windows, through which we squinted;

The stones, which we chaired;

So tight a capture,

by the ropes of desire.

The saucers, which we shared;

The servings, which we had;

The cup, together we held;

A deja-vu will fire,

in the life after..

The incenses, which we sensed;

The souls, through which we steered;

The melodies, crossing our four ears;

Comes real that laughter;

Yes, we're again here!

The attires, which we donned;

The words, which we uttered;

The weather, through which we sailed;

It's crystal clear;

I'm an avid dreamer!

The sunsets, which we witnessed;

The solitude, which we deliberated;

The fly-catcher, the silence which it broke;

Preserved with care,

to be handed over to the ulterior.

The gazes, which our eyes exchanged;

The touch, which drew us closer;

The warmth, which we created;

I'm always there;

Hope you don't flicker..

Joy - for the first time..

           drowned in my sleep, 

I got up at night;

          began recalling, 

What cooked up in the day.

           just washed by rain,

The day of mild winter;

          a little of sun;

The spray of cool breeze.

          an unknown force, 

Pulling me hard;

          a shivery feeling, 

Culling me slowly.

          out of the bed, 

I knew what to do;

          like a bird, 

I flew out in the sky;

           unable to figure out 

How correct i was;

          with doubts hanging; 

How tough it was..

          fixed in following 

My heart's voice;

           i waited to open 

My crossed fingers.

          and when it came, 

It was the loveliest;

           none of my dreams matched; 

It was the wildest!

          the smile followed; 

Rain in every corner;

          my thoughts gone awry; 

Pain left nowhere.

           the most special moment; 

The epitomy of joy;

          was in a bosom i slept; 

The summary of death?

          the death i know; 

It's a prolonged agony.

           but now look at me; 

It's a wicked desire!

           tasting love 

For the first time;

           i was craving 

For the next dose.

          will this last? 

Will this be no longer?

          loser as i have been; 

Will this change something?

The new day.........

Today began

a new chapter

this day came

with a new laughter

Is this a rain

or I rode a roller coaster

or a joy in wain

and night forever..

or is this a gain

broad day after a long winter

that came as an airplane

a sort of a breather

the horses of my brain

run helter skelter

or should they follow a lane

like clouds in summer?

the day just slain

leads me to wonder

whether the time again

will lead me to falter

difficult to be sane

and all awake after

and catch this train

going faster and faster

I think of all the drains

to flush out my mind sugar

as I don't want the pain

to get to me any further

Is this a game

or a christmas shower

or whether a dead flame

is to catch a fire

Are you making me tame

to obey your order

or you've got into a chain

with me at the center?

We two are same 

or do we differ;

or can I make you lame

and dance to my trigger?

Or you've got the shell

at the other side of the river

not letting you sail

and makes you wither..

Whomever to blame

whatever the pressure

let me tell you plain

that past is not a repeater

gone is that name

that litter clear

which got you to claim:

the night isn't over

Short by the pen

ditched by the paper

but piped to you man

the crux and the flavour

hope you frame

hope you figure

your real disdain

was just a stirrer:

and hope to see you again

with a renewed vigour

at least on the outer cane

which is your attire............

A little closer?

The laws of physics

and the facts of matter

got failing for me

since the day I saw her..

Everything is bright

and night so dear;

Songs interest me

now more than ever

Those talking eyes

with a sprinkle of glitter;

appears as if

the sea is so near

and a blary black

and wet strand of hair

that comes in between;

this is not fair! :-(

My heart boils

in the wetness of a tear

My love

please come some closer?

I pray to God

if she were here

in a deep sleep

with her head on my shoulder

I'm undecided,

to touch or stare;

or to get the time

freeze then and there

Rosy lips

with a glossy flare

and these pinkish cheeks

no crystal so clear

tempt me

and my hand changes gear

to explore and see

is this real or a mirror

but wait!

this'll surely litter

this masterpiece-

a moon without one wear..

Coming out of it

with a grin of solitaire

cherishing the dream

of open eyes and ear

But for one thing

I definitely want to cheer:

the lasting memories

of her mesmerizing glare........

Why the hell?? :(

I was mowed

falling in emptiness

I was dumb

an air of thoughtlessness

I was rocked

as if I jumped from the terrace

I was shocked

she just rejected me!

The clock ticked

once in ten seconds

My spine chilled

it really happened!

My heart cried

she got farther and farther

I was horrified

a love song played in the corner

I was tired

the limbs breaking down

My intestines fired

a lava flowed within

Salt of my eyes

came melting down

and spin of my head

though I wasn't drunk

Till was it heard

and the tape rewinded

I was pleased

it was my alarm clock!

That one night.......

Once upon a time

I woke up at night

all those jittery dreams

vanished from my sight

found myself sitting

staring wide

making sense of that

fiery respite

i wanted some water

so stood upright

washed my veins

with a binge of delight

don't know where the drowse

got buried inside

and a magnet in the balcony

pulled me with all its might.

With the roundness of moon

and the dark spots inside

the stars encircling

are no less white.

I pondered over

the percentage of light

and wondered over

why all this is so bright!

The calm cool breeze

offered me a ride

but I could just imagine

me to be a kite

flying over the town

facing down upside

till a distant fly-catcher

became my eye-ball-guide

a security man

and his bamboo strike

whom hell anyone cares

awoke upright

this all is so peace

this all is so light

against the day-

an ongoing fight

the day-exclaimed my mind

the next one should be right

but that has a condition

a nice nap tonight

So time to bid bye

to this rare octernal slide

as "early to bed and early to rise

makes a man healthy wealthy and wise"!